I’m not really sure what I want to write about today but I feel compelled to put words to the screen. Ah yes, relegated to memory are the days of pen to paper. This journey I’ve been on has taken a twist here and a turn there. I find myself enmeshed in a spiritual journey right now. I guess my journey with compulsive over eating is a spiritual one as well. I just find that the weight conversation has been pushed aside. By no means do I feel comfortable in my physical body but I feel as though I’m on a different road that might, just might bring me to some peace with it all.
I’ve been receiving acupuncture and Reiki for about two years now and both have opened the energy in me and brought me to elevated states of spirituality and physicality. I find that I’m much more in touch with both of them. As I opened up, so did my opportunities. I’ve done yoga, I meditate- sometimes, I dream frequently and journal about it, I’ve done a Shamanic healing, a technique called disappearing discomfort and most recently I trained and became a Reiki master myself so that I can deliver Reiki. With each step, I find myself digging and rooting around and putting pieces of this puzzle together.
At times I wonder if I THINK about it all way too much! Then there are times that I realize that’s why I’m here. Just this past week I realized that one of the gifts I give this world is my willingness to dig and my willingness to share when I dig in the shit to find the treasures. That’s what I’ve found for myself. Yes, there are times when I find the treasures just walking along the proverbial beach but most times they are covered in dirt and need to be cleaned up to shine through. I’ve been gifted with a willingness to do this and to pass along what I learn.
I guess that is what I wanted to affirm for myself tonight. I wanted to put it in writing that I became fully aware last week that all I do is not just for me. I call it personal growth however it’s really people growth because I pass it along to others. Whether it’s in conversations, in writing of this blog or with my newly founded Reiki practice, my growth is your growth. Hey. That’s cool!